Ah,The New Year Is Here!

So the new year has come and gone with out much of a fuss. I fell asleep before the ball dropped and Reina says she let out a small Yay and then settled down and finished her painting for the night. It was a quiet New Years Eve, with Reina and I having dinner together and me reading silently and Reina painting the woman she dislikes the most in the world's face(unintended of course). The following days since have passed without anything remarkable happening and I have to admit I feel no different than I did in 2010. Maybe that's why we make such a big deal out of New Years Eve so we can remember that we marked the day the year ended. Sitting quietly at home does nothing to mark the change. But it's all I had to work with. Lola's 6th Birthday is in three days and I'm so excited to celebrate with her and the family up in New York for the day. It should be a great time. I spent way too much money on her presents but I truly cannot help myself when it comes to her and moderation. I show my love with gifts and cards and I always have. I don't think it's something I can stop now. Maybe when Lola gets older I'll be able to control myself better?! Work has slowed to a crawl and things are tight. I was hoping to save for a computer in the next couple of months but having no work means I need to spend the money I do have on just surviving the winter. Reina is getting bigger and more beautiful with each passing week and soon enough we will be throwing her a baby-shower to remember. I guess I should start planing that now?! I have a couple wonderful opportunities to take pictures of people coming up this month so I am happy to start working on those projects. Engagements and baby-bellies. Yay! I don't know how the pictures will turn out but the experience should be worth it in the end. I hope I do them justice and they get the pictures they want and need from me. Mentally I am feeling a little bit numb. So many crazy unpredictable things have happened in the past few months that it has left me totally without feelings. No anger or sadness or joy. Just numb. I think I should probably talk to someone about that! Anyway, the New Year is here and as far as I can tell nothing has changed for the better or the worse. Just the last number in the date is different. Hopefully this feeling of numbness will wear off and I can experience some joy in the New Year. I am in desperate need of it! Happy New Year to you!